Photo: I spent a couple of hours on my angel yesterday! It probably doesn’t look like that much work, but it IS! Two wings done, the dress done and early details done. Two more wings to do and then we start working on the finer details. I admit that this is going faster than I anticipated… Applique is weird and interesting. It presents shortcuts (the fabric is doing the work) and challenges (OMG I have to attach fabric to fabric and keep it pretty and make sure these stitches are even). I’m loving the challenge!
I am so sorry I didn’t write on Friday. We hosted our last candidate for Rector Search last week, so Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday were crazy. On Friday, I was supposed to meet with my writing group (didn’t happen) and I taught my last class of the Spring. I woke up with a headache on Friday morning, chugged my Advil and my coffee and kept the damn thing moving. When I got into this house at 9:30pm, I went upstairs, peeled myself out of my attire, and was asleep before my head hit the pillow.
Tonight is the night for making our choice. Three different candidates. Three different offerings. We believers have been made to understand that the Holy Spirit is working through us and, ultimately, the choice is out of our hands. It’s paradoxical, really, isn’t it? It’s our choice via the Holy Spirit? It’s the Holy Spirit’s choice via us and our process? And what happens if I don’t like the choice (I’ve only got one candidate I’m firmly not excited about)? I’ve been asking myself, out loud and in my head, “How much do I trust the Holy Spirit?”
This would be blasphemous in any other circumstance, but Episcopalian is basically the best flavor of Christianity. I get to question as much as I want! Matter of fact, questioning is peak Episcopalian, so…
Basically, I’m at the apex of over a year’s worth of very hard work. The entire journey comes down to tonight. I’m scared and I’m exhausted, because ultimately I’m not in control of the outcome. This is a decision made by a group of people. I can only hope (and pray) that I am satisfied with the outcome.
After tonight, the work isn’t over: My co-chair and I have to deliver our result to the Vestry on Wednesday night. I suspect this means I won’t be writing on Wednesday, given everything that’s going on. But Friday, oh Friday, I think will be ok.
Want to know something hilarious? The boys have only 2 more full weeks of school before summer vacation. 2 and a half weeks left. Three of those days are half-days. 1 of those days, I gotta go in for something. Everyone is doing the countdown: the teachers, the students, the mommies. Some of us are more delighted than others. I admit that I’m looking forward to camp… but Lordy, there is a lot to do between now and then.
Dear Reader, you’ve been so patient with me and I am so grateful. I’m almost done.
It is my hope to see you Friday for Quiet Thoughts. Until then, keep working hard and take good care.