[Quiet Thoughts] Where Did My Six Months Go??

Photo: I realize that I shouldn’t have put anything cooking related on my year task-list because, honestly, it was just a freebee. Not fair at all. I baked no less than five loaves of brioche this week and only kept 1 for me. And I’m waiting for my bananas to ripen more so that I can make some banana bread this weekend!


I woke up this morning, put together some blueberry muffins (and some regular muffins for The Husband), then set the brioche for the weekend’s French Toast to rising and started reading through my “Ultimate Tasklist” from January. I read it critically, but couldn’t help but chuckle. Something something best made plans and whatnot, right?

Interestingly, I haven’t accomplished as much (from the list) as I thought I would. Some things I just will out and out fail to do before the end of the year. Other things, I might come close to completing. Instead of going through all 14 items, I’m just going to highlight a few:

  1. Submit 5 short stories to various publishers/contests throughout the year: Believe it or not, I’ve submitted 2 so far. And I plan on submitting a third in the next two weeks. THIS is totally going to happen by the end of the year!)
  2. I’m going to be a better friend and neighbor. This is another one I can check off the list. I’ve made 2 genuine mom-friends from preschool, both The Husband and I have begun to form our little networks here in MetroWest, we love our neighbors, and I think we’re feeling a lot less lonely then we were 6 months ago. I also re-invested in a few relationships from before that have been really helpful and great reminders that my life isn’t totally centered around this house or that school. I’m not saying that it’s perfect, but it’s getting better.
  3. I’m going to put more effort into joining a faith community. Lord. We need to try again in the Fall. Everyone is on “summer schedule” and stuff is all funky… Gonna ease back in when school starts back up.
  4. I’m going to explore MetroWest and love where I live: Done and done. And I know the back roads like the back of my hand. I’m having so much fun exploring and learning, and rediscovering this landscape now that it is lush and green. What a beautiful place to live. It takes my breath away.
  5. I’m going to renew my commitment to auditing EdX Courses. This, I have just out and out failed. I get an email from the 5 courses I signed up for every week. And the classes slowly left me behind. It’s sad, because everything I chose was really interesting and I wanted to dive in… but… this was the first thing I let go of when the craziness started. The worst thing about this is that I can’t see myself making a lot of time for this even next year. I have to find a way to keep learning and growing without this level of commitment. I need to be a “life long learner” but not a “life long student.” Is such an existence possible?
  6. I’m going to read at least 25 books. Second thing I’ve just flat out failed. It is a damn sad thing, too, because I used to read 50 books a year. But reading time had kinda turned into kntting-in-front-of-TV time, and when I DO decide that I’m going to sit down and read a book, I often find myself bored. I think that my genre interests have changed, I think I’ve also just made some bad selections. The Husband has tried to get me to get a library card and do the digital lending thing, but… shmeh. My brain is rotting one day at a time! 2015 will be the year of the book for me, I think!
  7. I’m going to learn how to knit. I didn’t just learn how to knit, I found a passion for knitting. I love knitting. Knitting is meditation for me. If I neglect to knit even a little bit in a day, I get cranky. I’m on my fourth project, a pretty cabled blanket, and I am practically pushing The Husband and the little bears up the stairs each night for bath-time so that I can get started! Best thing I’ve done for myself all year.

You know, when I originally wrote my big list, I knew that it was ambitious, but I also thought that it was reasonable. Most of the goals are measurable and certainly achievable over a long stretch of time. They only require a good work ethic, sound time management, and absolutely no emergencies whattsoever. You know, 365 days of perfect, perfect, perfect.

hahaha. I’m such a fool. Why do ya’ll let me be so damn foolish?

I’m a work in progress, Lord knows, and this list certainly reflects that. It’s funny: You make those resolutions in January and you just have no idea what you’re going to be capable of doing as you go through your year. This list barely reflects all of the other things that I’ve done this year, and when I look at the entire list on the last Friday of the year, I know that I’m going to look at it and say, “Well shit. That doesn’t reflect half of what I did in the last 12 months!”

There is something kind of awesome in that thought. When you keep the big picture in view, it’s easy to congratulate yourself on the things you’ve actually managed to do. It’s always way more than you think, you know?

It’s Friday, ya’ll. The last Friday of June. A gorgeous Friday here in Massachusetts. Not too hot, not humid at all, and few clouds to be scene. Technocolor and perfect. Major is downstairs because he has dropped his nap (boooo! hisssss!). Minor is in his crib because he hasn’t (thank you, sweet Jesus!). I have an easy dinner planned and some me-time built into my upcoming weekend. Words will be written, work will be stitched, sleep will be had.

So what about you?

I wish you a feeling of accomplishment this Friday. I wish you summer sun on your skin, but also ocean breeze in your hair. I wish you birdsong in the morning, jazz in the evening, and laughter during the daylight in between. I wish you good iced-coffee, served with just the right balance of ice, cream and sugar, accompanied by a good sandwich with a pesto spread. I wish you crafted beer aside grilled meat (or vegetables! Or both!) and a good laugh at a well told joke. I wish you a good story told by a person you admire, a dream that stays with you all day, and the creeping feeling in your gut that you’re doing the right thing. I wish you joy because that’s what summer is for.

Until Monday, take care.

3 Comments Add yours

  1. I double dog dare to put only one thing on next January’s to-do list: make no to-do lists lol.

    You’re always looking for a challenge, right? 😉

    Hey what are those EdX courses?

    1. K.C. Wise says:

      Ohhhh!! You would LOVE EdX. it started as a collaboration between Harvard and MIT but has expanded way beyond it. The courses are high-quality, totally free and (almost) fully interactive on a bunch of different cool topics. love love love.

      I can’t say that they are all awesome. I’m personally annoyed when you get 2 really amazing professors but they do the grad-school thing of encouraging the 3 grad-students at the table to do all of the thinking and talking. it isn’t all like that, tho.

      check it out! https://www.edx.org/

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