Photo: Vacation in the south. Will I make it there or will my sons drive me to insanity first? We’ll see…
Let me start this post with a big Holy Crap moment for me:
I crossed over the 600 follower mark this weekend! Whaaaaaaaaa??? What are you and why are you reading about my first world problems!?!?!?!!
I started this blog in December and I just can’t believe that I have 600 followers, especially because I’m a terrible blogger! WordPress always gives suggestions about garnering followers: Read other blogs, write comments, follow blogs. Dude, I’m telling you, I really rarely do those things. I’m really rarely read other people’s blogs and even more rarely than that I’ll leave a comment. There are a few blogs that I love and I’ll pop in once a week just to see what’s the word, but otherwise, I’m really really terrible. So that fact that there are 600 people out there who want to read my crazy BS without any prospect of me doing the same really is just something. I have no words for how I feel about this.
I can only say thank you. I’m grateful that you are here. I hope that I continue to write posts that strike a cord with you and will bring you back.
That being said, I also want to apologize for my ranty raving crazy-mom post on Friday. I was not in a good place last week, and I’m so grateful for your supportive comments. We had a much better weekend, mostly because The Husband gets the rockstar treatment when he’s home and the boys follow him all around the house, so I was off the hook…sorta. There was plenty of cooking, cleaning and laundry to do. But we did get out of the house, found a very cool park with plenty of shade and cool stuff to play with, went to Costco and filled my pantry with good food and we snuggled up to a movie on Saturday. I’m not a big movie person, but The Husband made me sit down to watch Oblivion and I must say that i enjoyed myself. It was one of the better scifi’s that I’ve seen in a while. I will say that having that beer while I was watching it probably helped. 🙂
It was good to relax and let go for even a few moments this weekend. Three different people in my life expressed in not too subtle ways that I’ve been a bit of a wreck of late. My writing buddy, a lovely woman who lives in NYC, called me yesterday and during our long chat she finally said, “you know, you are really carrying a lot. You’re a bit strung out up there.” I shrugged it off. I carry what I’m given and I know that there are others who carry more with far less support than I do. She wasn’t convinced, “I’m not talking about them. I’m talking about you. You need to take some more time for yourself.” She’s right, of course. It’s easy to deflect, but that doesn’t make it healthy. If I continually choose to belittle my stress and feelings, I’m not helping anyone or anything.
So I’m going to try to own some of my stresses and wash them away. We’re heading on “vacation” starting next week. I’m looking forward to listening to the Atlantic Ocean sing me sweet songs that will put me to sleep. However, I know that with two young boys and all of my family present (We’re renting a huge beach front house and stuffing 13 people into it), I think that moments of pure relaxation will sporadic and brief. I’ve been looking forward to this time for two years, but I know that it won’t meet my full expectations. What I really need is a weekend to myself somewhere. I’d love to Just lock myself in a fairly nice hotel room with a view of the ocean and really good room service. Of course, preparing for the expedition requires a lot of organization and planning, which is cool because I love organization and planning. The Moleskines are out and being scribbled in! Bags are being assigned, clothing is being designated, daily task lists are being formed, questions are being answered. It feels good to be productive.
So what does Vacation mean for this little corner of the internet that 600 of you now follow? Well, I’ll have internet for part of it, and for those parts, I’ll be with my in-laws. You know I’ve got to blog about that! LORD DO I NEED TO BLOG ABOUT THAT! I can’t even WAIT to blog about that. The other part, well, internet is going to be spotty. I haven’t had time to write posts to schedule for that time, nor did anyone decide to guest post for me, so there might be radio silence that week. Then again, if my in-laws are particularly stupid for the portion that we are with them, I might just have enough material to cover three posts. We’ll see. In the mean time, you still have me and my crazy this week, and there is plenty to do.
Did I tell you that the deal with the house isn’t quite dead? I didn’t tell you that? Oh, let me tell you about that.
The Husband and the Realtor are pretty much in cohoots. They don’t want to give up on this thing and we’re going through one last measure to see if we can make this deal. A plumber and an electrician are coming out on Wednesday morning to give us hard estimates on how much it would cost to do the necessary work needed for the house.We basically have $30k to play with (there are ways for first-time homebuyers to finance home improvements through their mortgage. I won’t get into the details). But, that 30k needs to cover a complete electrical rewiring of the house, a conversion of the home from oil to gas, and a re-do of a lot of the plumbing in the home. As many of you have noted, home improvements with contractors always cost more. Always! So I’m not convinced that we’re going to get what we want here. When I post on Wednesday, i’ll have a definitive yay or nay.
In the mean time, this precious nap time is about to be filled with phone calls. I wish I had more to share today but it’s a quiet day. There was part of me that wanted to write about Russell Simmons and his ridiculousness last week and Robin Thicke and his ridiculousness last week, but I can’t. I just can’t. I’d rather pay attention to the situation in Egypt or the schooling crisis in Philadelphia or the governing crisis in North Carolina. Actually, yes, I will dedicate a little of my time talking about what is happening in North Carolina because I don’t think that enough people are paying attention…so look for that at some point. Not today, but maybe while I’m on vacation…
In the mean time, happy Monday and happy new week. Let’s have a good one, yeah?
…….annnnnddd the boys are up….. they napped for 1 hour….. It is going to be a really bad afternoon….